Angelversary #9

Dear Mikkie angel!

One of our favorite things to do on your angelversary is to watch your home videos. Sitting on the couch all together cuddling, laughing, crying, smiling, remembering..... 

I love the opportunity to be together with loved ones to talk about and remember you. What parent doesn’t love talking about their children? 😁

To some it may seem that you had an ending to your short life but to me it was merely an interruption. I know your spirit, I know your essence and I feel it close by, you are very much alive to me, and I know some day in the future I will get to see that sweet face of yours again, hug you tight, and experience the most inexpressible joy. That day seems far off right now but so did today 9 years ago, the day you died. I love that there are angels among us, helping us by our side. I have no doubt that you are an incredible angel doing so much good, spreading so much joy and light. 

You know how butterflies remind me of you... there have been so many that have fluttered right by me this past month it makes me smile! I’m not even on the lookout for them, they just fly right in front of me... such tender mercies to me. I know you are close by sweet girl, I know you are with your family who loves and adores you. Seeing all these butterflies has caused me to think about them more and I heard something about them on a podcast I was listening to that I absolutely loved. They start out as caterpillars, busy doing their thing and when they become completely and totally immersed in their cocoon they come out a new creature, a beautiful butterfly! 

Similarly, we are like caterpillars, busy about our lives doing our best but when we become completely and totally immersed in Christ, we shed our old self or natural man and He makes us into a new being! I love that! How powerful is that! 

I love my Savior so much and am so grateful for His strength, comfort, peace and love that I have felt. I know He has been by my side, holding me closely in His arms in my darkest hours, and continues to be with me lifting me up and helping to press on. He has helped me to feel joy again, and has given me hope. 

You are so special, little angel of mine. Remember you’re in my thoughts, my hopes, my dreams, I’m always thinking of you and memories of you are etched in my heart forever. 

Love always, 

Mama