Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Some gratitude

Sweet Mikkie,

Have I mentioned yet how much little Spencer reminds me of you? It's uncanny. What a blessing to have yet another reminder of my sweet little girl.
I can never have enough of those.

Daddy's been having a rough time with his asthma lately, another reminder of you though not the pleasant kind. I have a hard time seeing him struggle to breathe especially since it makes us both think about that unthinkable day. It's been a scary few days with that, which brings me to my gratefuls....

I'm extremely grateful your dad is doing a bit better. Breathing is kind of a necessary thing to live. I'm grateful for God's mercy in continuing to spare his life. I just may completely lose my sanity if I lost someone else.
As if we've forgotten, it's been an added reminder to cherish life and every moment we have with each other. Seize the moment and waste no time with the petty things.
I'm grateful to God for each and every moment of my life and my loved ones. Life surely is more bearable with them.

I'm grateful to God for continuing to spare our life each and every day, all it takes is for Him to stay His hand and we are gone.

I'm grateful for the few who still talk about you! Who continue to ask how things are or invite me to share my memories about you, even if I've shared them before... I only have a short span of 21 months to share. It makes me happy to talk about you and so I relish in every moment I get to reminisce of my sweet angel girl.

Thank you, our sweet guardian angel, for watching out for us. I've felt divine help on more than one occasion lately and know without a doubt you were the angel helping us.

I love you so very much! Know that there is not a single day that goes by that I don't think of your sweet face.

Love always,


Friday, March 16, 2012


My dear Mikayla,

2 months already... So much for the weekly reviews. I guess I need to make a goal to start my goal. Ha I have been thinking about my blessings, just haven't recorded them. I think it's more effective to write them down though, so here goes another try.
I've missed writing to you. So why haven't I? It's a therapeutic thing for me and I actually think I'm doing a bit better when I am writing you. So I don't really know why.

It seems like there's been one thing after another since your brother was born. It's like I was being tested to see if I really would look for the positive in hard times. I don't think I did the best but I did try. That's got to count for something right?

I'm very, very grateful Spencer hasn't got sick yet! He did have one fever but I felt more calm than usual when we took him to the doctor. After daddy gave him a blessing, the fever went away within a few short hours. I was for sure counting my blessings!

I'm grateful to have had a good recovery. The weird, annoying little problems I did have could have been a lot worse, and so I was counting my blessings then also.

I'm grateful that all the close calls with daddy's asthma/allergy saga didn't end up as trips to the ER; No more ambulance/ER experiences for me, thank you.

I'm grateful for good friends. The kind of friends you can vent to and talk their ear off and they're still there listening, and not judging.

I'm grateful for good health! This has been one nasty winter for sickness. It's been visiting and revisiting our neighbors many times, talk about relentless! I count myself fortunate that we're as healthy as we are.

I continue to see more and more how important it is to keep a positive attitude. Being negative can suck you down into misery. It's a choice we have to make each moment, each day.

I love my baby girl so much!!

Lots of love,