Wednesday, February 20, 2013

Calling All Angels

Dear sweet Mikayla,

It's been a bit more of a rough time recently, there are always bumps along the road.. Like I heard in church last week, "some choose to go downhill which is the easier way, if you really want an adventure, gi uphil....

One of my dear friends who knows of my troubles sent me a song yesterday that deeply touched my heart bringing me to sobbing. It's very beautiful, it's about someone who lost their child- which I can relate to, but the part in the song that brought me comfort at this time is talking about calling all angels for help to comfort her. That's what I do a lot! Angels both seen and unseen came to my aid.

Calling all angels
I need to feel something familiar something real.
Am I just dreaming
I close my eyes.
I feel you near and feel you inside.
Just to call your name and know that your still there.
Calling all angels.

I know God heard my prayers as I felt your angelic comfort come to my rescue.

I love you and miss you so very much. Thank you for comforting your mommy.



Calm in heart

Hello sweet girl,

My SIL recently sent me this quote and it went right along with my last post....

"Peace does not mean to be in a place where there is no trouble, noise or hard work. It means to be in the midst of those things and still be calm in your heart."

I pray to feel peace everyday regardless of how others are or what the circumstances
are. We all have "that kind of day" but it is possible to feel peace. I'm working on it- sometimes when God blesses me with a feeling of peace, I have to remember to focus on positive, happy things or I start feeling anxious and overwhelmed all over again.

With love,

Wednesday, February 6, 2013

Happiness is a way of travel

My dear Mikkie,

Here is the start of my goal and pursuit of being happy. I'm going to share with you all things happy, positive, inspiring and uplifting. Pictures, music, quotes, stories, videos etc...

Last week I started on the hunt of gathering all things happy along with daddy, we are going to make this our focus. "If you focus your time on the positive and happy you have little time to feel sad and negative." :)

So, to start off....

"Remember, happiness is a way of travel, not a destination!"

I love you sweet girl!



Saturday, February 2, 2013

Being Happy

My dear little girl,

I don't know how I went so long without writing you. You know when you feel so overwhelmed with things or just life in general sometimes and you just basically try and survive... you feel overwhelmed so you do nothing.

Did I tell you my goal for this year? Ya, not plural, just 1 goal. I thought about it after the year had already crept up on me and it didn't take long for me to think of it.

Be Happy.

I just want to be and stay happy. Sounds so simple, right? "If you want to be happy, then just be happy." No, sometimes it's easier said than done. 
I have so much to be grateful for and continually repeat to myself 'I can be happy even amidst trial and sorrow.' Circumstances don't have to determine your happiness.

I've been thinking about happiness a lot lately. I've found that you cannot base your happiness on others; be happy because you want to. Take charge of your happiness, don't let others decide it for you. Sometimes people and circumstances can definitely add to your happiness, but if you rely solely on others, your life will be an emotional roller coaster and it will wear you down on every level.

It's become increasingly more apparent to me that we don't have control over much in life, but we do get to choose whether we are happy or not.

Some ways I know for sure that can help in being happy are: (in addition to the obvious ones)

Be positive
Be grateful

Those are part of  my plan in achieving my goal.....

I resolve to be happy regardless of my circumstances. It can be hard but it can be done.

I sure love you, Mikkie. You are one of my greatest joys, thank you for all the happiness you brought into my life during your short little life. And you still continue to, as your memory lives on always in our hearts.